Oct 282004
 

I never seem to have enough of it. It’s been nagging at me for several weeks now. I have so much that I want to get done and accomplish and it just seems to pile up and never get any lighter. I’ve got at least 3 computers sitting at my house waiting to be rebuilt, I’ve got two engineers that would like me to do some work for them, and I still need to sit down and start researching a business plan for how I’m going to start working from home. In the midst of all this, I have plans for remodeling the house and migrating my shop from one of the bedrooms to the garage. Soo much to do and soo little time!

I know that I could probably just sit down and start planning these things but it seems like most of what I plan never comes to be as life manages to get in the way. In reality, I see that I spend a lot of time just getting with people and families helping them out and I don’t mind. I understand that this is part of the sacrifice I chose to offer to God but it’s getting harder to feel good about these sacrifices when it also seems like I’m the verge of becomming “self-negligent” in the process. I don’t really take care of my body and I don’t really take care of my family like I’d like to.

I cleared up a lot of work I had to accomplish to go to Hawaii and now that I’ve been back for most of the week, it feels like I’m right back in the “stew of urgent tasks” that surround my life. I don’t use my franklin planner that often but I am beginning to have serious doubts about if that would help or not anyways. I suppose it might be good to at least sit down and start prioritizing all the things I want to get done and maybe I’ll see light at the end of the tunnel…I don’t know. I don’t even know when I’ll be able to do that! I’ve got to get at least one computer done by the end of the week or there will be hell to pay. I also have doubts that it will even be a worthwhile machine when I’m done with it. Oh well. I think I’m not going to accept any more side work until I get this all sorted out. -no I can’t do that yet, we need the money. Hawaii ‘kinda put us on the financial edge and my wife doesn’t like being there (and I’m starting to understand her beliefs about it too).